Without Words

Staggering and dizzy, I just don't know what to pray
So without words, I am trusting You

I'm not sure if I'm climbing up or falling down
I feel your presence all around,
So without words, I am trusting You

I just want to climb inside Your presence
Like a thick and safe cocoon
I want to drown my senses in You
Have no thought but You.
My Rock, and my Redeemer,
My comfort, and my Storm...
Everything I need is in You
All this other is just nothing
Without You

Blind me to this world and give me other-sight
Remove the chains that bind me, and hold me to your side
Take this soul so threadbare, and mend me with your flood
With mercy, hold me gently and cleanse me with your blood

I trust in You
I trust in You
I can't conceive of how You can save me,
So without words,
I trust in You

the rest is secret... too glorious for words...

Worship wells
in this receding flesh
dancing pure joy
upon your altar.

Keep me ever here
ever burning
dancing to your measure
upon the ashes of who I was
in the glory of your presence...

...as You like...

I thought I had a little more time,
A few more days-
Some stolen hours
to fortify myself
for the things You have planned.

Dizzy, I realize that I was wrong
and the sound around me
is the song
you quietly started some time ago
when I wasn't listening.

Thank You for Your perfect timing,
that never waits for my permission...
It's just as well, for in my fear
I procrastinate and hesitate
Dulling the edge of your sharp intention.

Here I am, caught up
in your lovely hurricane,
bare,
unprepared,
vulnerable...
just as you like me best;
and I sense your pleasure,
your laughter,
your delight
at my unsurprised surprise.

I can barely think in the here,
so hard to focus in this place
when your breath is all around me
and Im dizzy from spinning
in the stars with you.

Daddy,
dance me on this floor
with your grace, wrapped in your embrace...
give yourself glory in what you cause me to do,
All I can see is you...
Everything I have is for you.
Steady me, so I can pour it out
As worship...

Steady me,
and keep me blinded
by your light,
bound ever to your side...
such is my delight.

I thought I was headed towards a what,
a place,
I knew it was a journey.
I know it is your will.

But you tripped me with your embrace,
so consuming,
and now I sense
that before I ever make it
to the mountain I see in the distance,
I will have climbed up it's gravel side
on my knees
with the crescendo of your glory
ringing in my ears.

What you do in me
defies words,
and makes every cell in my body
cry out and strain
in pure worship...

"The Highest Form of Worship is Obedience"

I can't remember where I first heard that quote, but it rings in my ears often.

Thank You for this fresh chance to worship You with my obedience. May each act of obedience be like fragrant oil before you, never enough, but always all that I have.

I knew this would be hard, and I knew that You would be faithful. I even knew to expect You to do fresh new things, and show me hidden truths in intimate moments as I worship with obedience. Still I am stunned at how deep You reach, and how fast you bring me to that place I never wish to leave. How is it that I walk around in flesh with all of THIS within me, that I am in two places... one hidden and secret? That I can walk around, and type and drive and clean, yet feel your fingers on my cheek, your breath in my ear?

I am undone in you, and humbled before the only one who is ever worthy... surrendered in Your hand to all that You want... fully yours.

2010 Year of Fully

 He kept showing me an image I can't quite describe, one of me and of His Spirit, almost like transparencies in a dark room.  He showed me the spirit, already dwelling in me, but then the image was overlaid on mine, and then it changed.  It GREW, or perhaps described better by saying it effervesced.  A light that grew and expanded past it's borders.


I kept praying about this in january, but He would give me no words to describe it.  Only the images.  Then this morning I heard on the radio about the One Word Resolution, an idea that I've seen echoing around the internet on blogs for several years. (Want help picking a word? look here)


Then he gave me the word - fully.  It kept banging around in my head like a pinball going faster and faster, God knows me so well!  I would have picked another word, a nice thesaurus word, but this is the one that He wants to use to teach me something this year, and I know He always picks best.


I know He wants to speak to me about letting Him dwell in me fully, and having me be fully surrendered.  He wants me to chase after Him more fully.  Him, the forefront of my life, the top spot on my every list.


There is more, and it is intimidating, as growth is to all  the small. 


Living fully in the moment He gives, with what He chooses to give me.


I pray that the end of 2010 finds me fully enamored of all of the new things He has shown me and taught me, and fully in love with He who holds my heart...

 

I am a garden locked..

I am a garden locked - I am sealed by the fullness of You.

I am a garden locked - I am sealed by the fullness of You...

Grow in me all that gives you pleasure, my King.
I will bloom for you alone.
I will bloom for you alone.

He has made me new; He has set me free-

Look at what my mighty God has done in me...